I'm sick of so called friends who are not supportive of anything you do or anything that makes you happy. I'm sick of selfish assholes. I am so grateful for the VERY few friends I have that are supportive of the things that make me truly happy, whether it means moving away from them or some other thing that indirectly effects them in a not-so-wonderful way. It seems that true friends are so much harder to find these days. I remember having the best friends a few years back and they'd support my shit no matter what and I would support theirs. Now it seems like everything is just like what the hell dude I want this, you can't do that. I am not that way to anyone and it makes me so angry and annoyed and upset when people are that way with me. It just reminds me of how right my decision is to move away from here. At the very least if I never find that kind of friend again, I know I'll be in a place I love with people I love and who love me. So forget (most of) you all.
This is directed at no one in particular, really. I guess I have a few people in mind.
P.S. This kind of makes me feel bad because Leigha has been the best kind of friend someone could ask for and she supports me in everything and I don't hang out with her near as much as I should.
I should also mention that Kacie is the most wonderful girlfriend I could ever hope to have and she also supports all my decisions and moves. So thank you both for that, whether you read this or not.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Saturday, May 30, 2009
This town is too hot.
Not much to update here.
Kacie is coming up next weekend and I am totally excited. This weekend has been pretty mellow so far, but that's ok because I feel pretty crappy.
In about a month I am going with her to see Leftover Crack and the Casualties, which will be fun I think. The morning after that we are driving to Virginia and flying out of D.C. to Florida to spend a few days doing fun things with my family. I am very very excited for that and I hope she likes my family. I know they will like her and I know we will have fun.
Other than that, I guess there isn't much to say. My car is almost paid off and so is my laptop, less than two months for each of them. Then I'll just have insurance and rent until I leave. Then I won't have bills, just the burden of figuring out what to do with my life and how to do it! I guess I can't really call that a burden, I feel pretty lucky to be able to figure it out for myself and have an opportunity to do it where I really want to do it. I am in no rush, however, because not to sound totally bummer-like ..because I don't want this to come off that way at all ....we all die someday! So I figure I'll figure out things and learn things and do things at my own pace so I can be happy with everything being just the way I want it to be.
I guess I'm a little strange. That's ok. (:
Kacie is coming up next weekend and I am totally excited. This weekend has been pretty mellow so far, but that's ok because I feel pretty crappy.
In about a month I am going with her to see Leftover Crack and the Casualties, which will be fun I think. The morning after that we are driving to Virginia and flying out of D.C. to Florida to spend a few days doing fun things with my family. I am very very excited for that and I hope she likes my family. I know they will like her and I know we will have fun.
Other than that, I guess there isn't much to say. My car is almost paid off and so is my laptop, less than two months for each of them. Then I'll just have insurance and rent until I leave. Then I won't have bills, just the burden of figuring out what to do with my life and how to do it! I guess I can't really call that a burden, I feel pretty lucky to be able to figure it out for myself and have an opportunity to do it where I really want to do it. I am in no rush, however, because not to sound totally bummer-like ..because I don't want this to come off that way at all ....we all die someday! So I figure I'll figure out things and learn things and do things at my own pace so I can be happy with everything being just the way I want it to be.
I guess I'm a little strange. That's ok. (:
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Sharing what I've got
I feel like not many people read this or maybe they don't even know it exists. That's really OK with me, I don't mind if people do or do not read.
I feel overwhelmed with things right now. Not always, though. It's hard to explain but I only feel overwhelmed about things for a couple of minutes and then I figure out solutions to everything I worry about in my head, and then I am relaxed again. This is an all day sort of thing and I don't really know what to make of it. I wouldn't say it's a bad thing or a good thing ..it's just a thing.
This past weekend was wonderful and exciting, this coming weekend I don't believe anything is going on. I could be completely wrong but I'm not sure. The weekend after that will be wonderful. Kacie is coming and I think we have a show to play. I love playing music. I'll miss this band when I move to Florida.
Speaking of Florida; Kacie and I are flying there (tentatively) at the end of June. That's going to be exciting. I think she'll really like my family and I think they'll really like her.
I wish I had something really cool to post about the things I've been doing or something about myself or that I've done something really productive or magical or amazing, but I don't. I'm just living and having fun for the most part. I guess that's pretty amazing these days, to just live and have fun. I feel like I should be doing more than that.
I feel overwhelmed with things right now. Not always, though. It's hard to explain but I only feel overwhelmed about things for a couple of minutes and then I figure out solutions to everything I worry about in my head, and then I am relaxed again. This is an all day sort of thing and I don't really know what to make of it. I wouldn't say it's a bad thing or a good thing ..it's just a thing.
This past weekend was wonderful and exciting, this coming weekend I don't believe anything is going on. I could be completely wrong but I'm not sure. The weekend after that will be wonderful. Kacie is coming and I think we have a show to play. I love playing music. I'll miss this band when I move to Florida.
Speaking of Florida; Kacie and I are flying there (tentatively) at the end of June. That's going to be exciting. I think she'll really like my family and I think they'll really like her.
I wish I had something really cool to post about the things I've been doing or something about myself or that I've done something really productive or magical or amazing, but I don't. I'm just living and having fun for the most part. I guess that's pretty amazing these days, to just live and have fun. I feel like I should be doing more than that.
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Party in Bethlehem!
Again, not posting in here as much as I'd like. But here goes;
Last night was the Bethlehem Panty Waste show. We stopped at the mall first to eat Pizza and saw Amy which was cool. We left kind of late but then about half way there we stopped for drinks and got off a wrong exit and added a whole hour to the trip there. I kind of felt like a jerk showing up after everyone in all the other bands had already played but it was really out of our hands. I think we played pretty wonderfully and I think the kids were really into us. We played for what seemed like a pretty long while. It was in a small cafe with maybe 3 small tables, a counter that had this nice, (dare I say?) indie-looking lady standing behind it who gave us waters for free because we traveled so far and there was another couch on the other side with a table in front of it. The walls were blue and there was only a few small lights and a big flower painted on the wall. It was really nice.
After the show in Bethlehem we loaded our stuff and found Alex and road to his house in Emmaus with him. He showed us the sleeping arrangements in his garage and then a bunch of kids showed up for a party ....in his garage. I just wanted to sleep and not party but since they wanted to party we kind of parted ways and found this nice little diner with good food for really cheap. By the time we were done eating and messing around at about 3am the party was over and we went back to Alex's house. Alex and Tyler were the only ones left and we all layed down and Tyler read us a bedtime story hahaha, how nice. The wright brothers.
We all woke up at about 8:30 and said thanks and bye to Alex and hit the road. Probably the most funny / fun roadtrip I've been on. I felt like I was constantly laughing to the point of not being able to breathe for the whole 3 hour trip.
That's about it up until now. I was totally beat all day, so I slept all day. I finally got a shower just now and I still feel pretty tired.
Next weekend Kacie comes and I am really excited to see her again. I feel like we haven't been talking as much as we usually do / as much as I'd like to, but I know that there are going to be times that we both have stuff going on and we'll talk as much as possible while that stuff is going on and it all will be totally fine. I love our relationships and I hope that it maintains this level of excitement, trust / everything else for a long time. It's great. (:
Last night was the Bethlehem Panty Waste show. We stopped at the mall first to eat Pizza and saw Amy which was cool. We left kind of late but then about half way there we stopped for drinks and got off a wrong exit and added a whole hour to the trip there. I kind of felt like a jerk showing up after everyone in all the other bands had already played but it was really out of our hands. I think we played pretty wonderfully and I think the kids were really into us. We played for what seemed like a pretty long while. It was in a small cafe with maybe 3 small tables, a counter that had this nice, (dare I say?) indie-looking lady standing behind it who gave us waters for free because we traveled so far and there was another couch on the other side with a table in front of it. The walls were blue and there was only a few small lights and a big flower painted on the wall. It was really nice.
After the show in Bethlehem we loaded our stuff and found Alex and road to his house in Emmaus with him. He showed us the sleeping arrangements in his garage and then a bunch of kids showed up for a party ....in his garage. I just wanted to sleep and not party but since they wanted to party we kind of parted ways and found this nice little diner with good food for really cheap. By the time we were done eating and messing around at about 3am the party was over and we went back to Alex's house. Alex and Tyler were the only ones left and we all layed down and Tyler read us a bedtime story hahaha, how nice. The wright brothers.
We all woke up at about 8:30 and said thanks and bye to Alex and hit the road. Probably the most funny / fun roadtrip I've been on. I felt like I was constantly laughing to the point of not being able to breathe for the whole 3 hour trip.
That's about it up until now. I was totally beat all day, so I slept all day. I finally got a shower just now and I still feel pretty tired.
Next weekend Kacie comes and I am really excited to see her again. I feel like we haven't been talking as much as we usually do / as much as I'd like to, but I know that there are going to be times that we both have stuff going on and we'll talk as much as possible while that stuff is going on and it all will be totally fine. I love our relationships and I hope that it maintains this level of excitement, trust / everything else for a long time. It's great. (:
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